Grrrrr.....life

Life can throw you some mean curve balls. Sometimes you can duck, sometimes you can hit a home run of those puppies, but sometimes you git hit square in the gut with them. Ever since I've gotten back from Ireland, it's like life has decided to puke all over me (interesting visual, I know) and I just can't seem to get out of her exorcist vomit path. There are a lot I could grip about, the medicines I was on that made me go crazy, the idiot people in the world, or the stupid decisions I've made....but I'm not going to do that. Instead I'm going to focus on Thor. That's right, Thor. He's so sexy!! Yummmmmy *drool* *swoon* *siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhh* for the next, however long it takes you to read this, you will be reading about Thor and his amazingly awesome self. If you would rather advert your eyes and not read this, then you would be denying yourself a fine piece of work (hahaha, see what I did there?!?!) So let's begin.....

I'm just Jossing you (seeeeee what I did there?! I know it's not the correct word, but it works), I'm not going to talk about Thor, I am going to talk about what I feel though. It'll probably be pretty random, but I can't keep it inside, and my diary is too far away (50 feet maybe away, that's a LONG way). First things first, I do love my friends. Even though I deactivated my Facebook, and I don't talk to you all the time like Facebook gave me the opportunity to do, I still love you all. I honestly feel like with how my life is and where it seems to be going, running away to a foreign country is seeming more and more likely. I have this overwhelming urge to start church, get a tattoo (and if you know my history on the first, you'd know that's a big deal, OUCH), and cut all my hair and dye it some outrageous color. I am SURE it's all the crazy meds trying to leave my system, but still. It's an overwhelming urge and I am about to jump on board. I've been researching schools and scholarships to go to Ireland or England. I've also been looking into schools out of state, in case I can't go out of the country. I know, life would suck without me, but you are amazing, you can do it!! lol

I'm trying to realize that we all make mistakes, we all do bad things, but just because we don't think they will happen to us, doesn't mean it won't.